I have yet
to know why people say college life was the best time in their lives. But today
when I went to my own college for the last time as a student, I felt weird more
than sad. After my course viva got over, as I removed my ID card, I felt sheer
joy because the damn thing got over at last, till I suddenly realised that I’m
removing my ID card for the last time from my neck. It felt sort of weird.
Something
similar happened when I went to give my library cards back last day. I wasn’t really expecting them to take it back. But
again I felt weird. It was like cutting away the bondings , one by one. But I felt
weird, not sad. And I felt good when we friends decided to go together to have
a last cup of coffee and snacks before returning home, I felt good when I walked
back with them today, even when I knew, this was the last time we are going to
walk back like this.
Now when I sit
back and thing, I still don’t feel sad. Maybe because we still have a class
photo to be taken and our farewell too. But yes I do feel weird…. I didn’t
expect all this to end so quickly. Some part of me always wanted to stay here,
and I can’t digest the fact that I’ve reached the end. I’m not really prepared
to face this.
I know I will
miss this place. That however does not mean that my 4 years were really really
good. There were tears, broken promises, incomplete sentences, and many
unfilled voids. There are moments I wish never had happened, there are
relations I wish I could build again, there are tears and wounds and forgotten
friendships, that I can never recover. There are broken trusts, lots of unsaid
things, stains and scratches… the list just goes on…
But amidst
all this, there are moments I wish would stay forever, laughter that still
rings in my ears, jokes and tricks that
bring tears to my eyes, all those stupid antics, those rainy days, those
unbearable summers, those cozy classes, tours, combined studies, those special moments at coffee shops, loitering
around in the campus, arts, matches, endless gossips, teasing each other,
little little fights that get over within mere seconds, some heart touching
words, some moments that fill our soul with joy, and many other that make us
ask why we are so lucky? Some great friends, so sincere and loving…..some
others who are fun to be with…teachers, labs, library……the list just goes on…
I will never
forget the last minute studies before exams, that feeling of satisfaction after
coming out of an exam hall, combined studies (where we did everything else, but
seldom studies) , seminars, the hustle-bustle before project deadlines,
placements, presentations, and finally this course viva…
There are
many here who have touched my heart with their love. Here, I learned my lessons
of friendship and trust, of unconditional love and limitless joy. Life is going
to change from now on.All those carefree and happy times are coming to an end
finally. I wish I could say lot more, but I find tears in my eyes finally, so I
will take my leave here…because some things become more beautiful when left
unsaid.