Wednesday, May 25, 2011

My best friend...



I met her first after some weeks after i joined my college.I was just over 17, carefree full of excitement that every girl and boy feels on entering their college life,and completely oblivious to the many trials and sufferings of life.I had absolutely no idea why i had choosen computer science engineering.I loved computer in 11th and 12th and i scored a fairly good rank in entrance exam,and i got on in merit basis in a nearby college and we had a 20 minutes boat journey to get there.I don't know which of these factors convinced my mind to go there.I really didin't have any idea about what was in store for me.
We met on a normal day.I knew there was a new girl coming because she was a classmate of one of my new friends.I saw her coming towards us with a face full of laughter.She didn't look as though she was meeting us for the first time.She blurted out that her bag was drenched because she hadn't tightened her bottle of water.That was our very first meeting.
It wasn't exactly friendship at first sight.We didn't sit together in class and as there were so many of us coming from the same place our meetings were rather less.But 6 of us remained friends throughout and that's how i knew her in first year.A girl who laughed a lot.
Things began to change in 2nd year when we both sat together,but i didn't feel about her the way i'm feeling now.For a person to have a blessing in life,at times he has to sacrifice some thing.I was a stupid girl,and my own mistakes gave me a hard time then.There was a time when i couldn't trust even my most dearest friend there,and i was completly broken.Friends for whom i had great love and respect left me without goodbyes, and someone whom i thought was my good friend slowly began to change too.It was the hardest time of my life.My bro helped out a lot,but i still felt an emptiness.For months,i cried through my nights,stood blankly at the shore of life,wondering what God will do t make me feel better.I had complete faith in Him and i knew that He will help me in someway.Only i couldn't see how.
It was really bad.I never knew that being alone could be so frightening.I don't know when,where and why i took that enormous decision to tell the truth , and only the truth to her.I still don't know why i choose her of all my friends.Maybe because she was so concerned and sincere to me.But that decision was the best i had ever taken in my life.
I had thought that she would ditch me after hearing me through,but i had to tell her the truth.Her true friendship was suffocating me so much.She never left me.She listened to my whole story without a word,and in the end she just told me that 'i'm with you'.Those words meant the world to me then.
I think at first i saw her as the only means of comfort that i had.But as each day passed,I saw that she was more.She guided me on,so carefully that i slowly came back to my usual normal life,the one which i thought i had lost for ever.She made me face realities,while silently supporting me.She was my mother teacher and best friend altogether.
I had fought with her countless times.I've irritated her,remained angry with her for stupid reasons.I still do at times.But i don't fear anymore of losing her,because i know now,that no matter how bad or stupid i get,she will always be there for me,and she will always love me.
After she became my true friend,i guess i changed a lot.I don't hate anyone now.I have no regrets and she is making sure that i'm improving on my tiny irritating faults.She is the best thing that happened in my college life & I thank God each and every day for that.
What should i call her???
She is Archana to many, Archu to her close friends,and for me....she's my world

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Thoughts on a hot Sunday afternoon

Now and again i see many people who have 100s of regrets in life, 1000s who wish for a second chance and millions who blame their luck or God.Many of them are unhappy in their life.Not satisfied with what they have,they go behind different useless,stupid and most often dangerous means to keep them satisfied, or in their own words, enjoy their life.
So in nutshell the main problem is in finding what true happiness is.For a millionaire it might be his next business deal,for a prophet , the way to find inner peace,for a student,getting a good score,for drunkards,finding money to drink at a famous bar....it varies...
Happiness is defined differently to each person.What we have to make sure is how much good our happiness is ..
And there you have the next hurdle.What is good ?My bro once told me that there is no good and bad.Humans make them all.I guess he is right.What is right for one may not be so for others.No wonder people say life is complicated.It sure is.
I was one of the many who wished for a booklet from God that will tell me the exact difference between right and wrong.I had made many numerous foolish decisions in life, which i like to call as my experiments now.To many, it looks like the unjustified behavior of an idiot,but to me each was a lesson,on what i must never do again.
After 20+ years,and a million tears,now i know for sure that i will be OK wherever i am, because i know what i should never do.
And the most important thing is that, unlike many others,i don't have regrets or complaints about my past.I have so much to be grateful for , every day that i don't really get time for complaints.I just say my thanks for being with me throughout..I have faith in my God.

Monday, May 23, 2011

hey

Every time i sit to type something,i never completed.So i shifted to papers...
No matter how much the technology has improved,i still find solace in writing down all that i feel.
There is this special power in a pen and a blank paper that not many can feel. You start writing,and you feel like you are speaking to your close friend.Maybe its just me.But i never get that contentment with typing...
Life has changed a lot.It is still changing...Wonder where it will take me to..
I will try to write more.But its me and my likes change too fast..so don't count on it
take care everyone

A final note...

            I have yet to know why people say college life was the best time in their lives. But today when I went to my own college for ...